Day 114

I wrote yesterday that I had a foggy brain, well, by this morning I couldn't even remember if I had blogged last night! LOL  On to a bullet form of happy moments and then on to my happy moment of bath and bed...work in the morning and hopefully Joel makes it to school after being home sick today!

First thought I want to share one happy moment that stood out today above them all.  I got to call my grandma today and talk with her for a few moments.  Her caretaker put the phone up to her ear and I read her a Christmas card that I had bought, but wasn't sure if I should sent it...what the heck I will send it as well.  I told her how much I love her and in her weak voice she told me she loved me too.  She will be passing away soon.  We got hospice care for her this week and she has a 24 hour caretaker in her home as well.  She isn't sick with a disease or having any specific medical difficulty, she has simply lost the will to live.  I love my grandma.  She taught me almost everything there is to know about jewelry, chocolate, traveling, and good taste in clothes and purses.  It is true that a grandchild/grandparent relationship is far less complicated than a parent/child relationship.  My parents and Davids parents for SURE have a much easier relationship with Joel and Connor than David and I do lol.  But seriously, my grandma is the one who taught me about politics, love, food, and what to appreciate and what not to appreciate.  She also taught me a very valuable lesson about forgiveness...unfortunately...because she never COULD forgive others for what she perceived as people being mean to her.  I am so glad I got to talk to her today.  If I am lucky enough to get to see her after my surgery on Christmas Day, then I can't wait to talk to her some more.  But I am thankful for my happy, loving, moment with her today.

• Got my pre-op blood drawn for the surgery and the count down is ON!  One week from now I will be at the Hospital, hopefully OUT of surgery, and eating their AMAZING tasting Jello for dinner!  I know...sad that I actually have PREFERENCES about the hospital food because I have been there so much...but, FYI, their meatloaf also rocks!
• We read another Christmas story with the kids tonight and shared some more about Christmas.  I can just FEEL the spirit of Christmas enter our homes and it gets a bit more loving in here when we talk about it each night.
• Joel was on the phone with both David's mom and aunt tonight and he was running up and down the hallways and Connor was on his tail the entire time laughing back and forth, back and forth.  Those are the memories that are tiny but hysterical...love it!
• Joel was sick today (not the happy part) I got to be the snuggle mommy and hold him while he watched TV....such a good mommy moment for me!

That is it for today friends.  I am off the internet and hopefully into bed very soon!  Find a loved one and tell them you love them...happy moments are sure to follow :-)