Greetings. Tonight I am once again with one good hand and one very paralyzed hand. My pointer finger kind of works, but that is about it. So I am enlisting my trusty husband and his intact hands to type for me once more. Thank goodness I have a sweet husband who will not only type everything I tell him to, but gets a lot of compliments as he goes because I am not sure how many more nights he will have to type for me lol.
- I started off my day by actually eating real food. It was a happy moment to get French toast, and David showed up just in time to cut it up for me. And Connor showed up just in time to eat most of it for me. But what I did get to eat was delicious, and the food stayed down, so that was a really happy moment.
- I made lots of friends at the hospital this time. All of my nurses were wonderful and I hope to see some of them that live here in my town again soon. Some of my happiest moments were being with my nurses and have them either listening to my story of what happened this year, get me my pain meds, and one even massaged my hand for thirty minutes every few hours!
As I look back over this last hospital experience, and the wonderful visits that I had from cherished friends, and wonderful phone calls I had, I realize what a different person I am. I told David today it is like all the experiences I have gone through this year can be likened to playing a video game, and each experience I have had has helped me to "level up." In some video games, when you gather enough experience points and go through certain "video game trials," such as boss battles (lol), you gain experience to get to move to the next level. I feel very much that that's how my life has played out this year. I feel like I've gone through a lot of boss battles and have moved to different levels, and I can't go back down. It's hard to explain because I don't want to say it and feel some sort of pride, but I just feel different now and I don't think I'll ever feel the same, and that makes me so happy. Someone at the hospital, probably a nurse (I can't remember), told me I have such a positive outlook on life, and that I seem like one of those people who always looks at the glass as half full. It just makes me laugh, because if you knew me even ten years ago, you would know that I was a natural pessimist and very much a Type A personality who had to have it all under control. These days, I don't know who that person is, because that doesn't even come close to who I am today. Happy moment? I guess this is what they call becoming enlightened, and I hope I can help others from all of this. I hope everyone has a wonderful day tomorrow. I am so looking forward to Christmas happy moments.
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